Thursday, December 31, 2009
{ 7:13 PM }
ready or not i got to face it.
Monday, December 28, 2009
{ 6:51 PM }
i dont know why i cant forgive that person even though it was just a mistake.
but at the same time i cant bear to see that person hurt.
sigh~
maybe only time could heal my wounds.
its too much for me i guess.
Monday, December 21, 2009
{ 7:47 PM }
sigh~ i must have hurt u..
Sunday, December 20, 2009
{ 9:34 PM }
as if u dun care.
i dun want this but wat can i do? this is fate. i dont wanna know if u care or not. it hurts.
thanks(;
Even if i got what i want will i be happy?
sigh~ i dont wish to know. how i wish that i didnt meet u.
being protective is good but over protective is bad. and i dont like it. people may say eh ur father so sweet. but then... he didnt know what i feel what i want.
what he wants doesnt mean it my dream. i have a dream and i want that dream to be a reality and not a dream.
is this what they call love from a father to their daughter?
if it is then i will choose to do what my father wants me to do and forget my dreams.
this is fated .
there someone asked me:
" if ur love wants to break up then will u let him go?"
i answered:
" what is his reasons for breaking up?"
that someone replied:
" he found his dream girl.. much more better than u.. "
i answered sadly:
" yes i will let him go if that what he wants. even if that person is my sis. "
i cried. i hope this will not happen. i hate to say.. it hurts a lot . but what can i do?
someone said this to me: " time will heal all the wound."
will time heal all my wound?
oh time... please do so. coz it killing me.
please let my mind rest. sometimes i wish i could let go everything . but its hard u know?
i just cant let it go..
Its been a month. yet i still couldnt let it go. why? why? *cry*
i wanted so hard to be happy. but i thnk its stll early huh?
what i can do now is what for happy things to happen to me.
Thanks people.
Thursday, December 17, 2009
{ 8:45 PM }
so yesterday as mum planned.. we went swimming(:
had so much fun but wasnt for long. My czn and i were supposed to go to bugis for shopping but due to some reasons we didnt get the chance to go. what a day.
i hate promises..
tats all for today (:
Sunday, December 13, 2009
{ 3:19 AM }
salaam~
so yeah im getting pau-er =D i know. haha.
hey, its not fun to be grounded okay? what to do. The only thng i can do is watching tv, surfing the net, eating n mxging. thats all. No fun at all.
few days a go went bowling with couzins, and fyqah's boyfren (:
have a lot of fun. (:
here a pic of us (:
me, my sis and my couzin :)
aku dah tembam.. haha =s
Thursday, December 3, 2009
{ 8:46 PM }
salaam~
Yesterday planned was canceled due to something unexpected.
Mum tag along as father instructed. That is so not cool.
From Now onwards mum will tag along wherever we go. Stupid isn't it?
Father is being over protective these days. I hardly had times outside and i spent most of my times at home. This is maddening.
yesterday we're supposed to go shopping at orchard but then we all have no mood after my father spoil our plan. So we decided to just go Cp.
At first we all are okay with it. But went we knew mum wanted to tag along. we got angry.
and we all decided to ignore her. I know it was wrong for my sis and i to do that.
i feel bad about it.
I got angry with my parents coz they told me to retain my preu 1.
okay that fine for me. but they went way too far this tyme.
they even plan which Uni i should go.
hey, that is totally not right. that is my future so i'm supposed to choose~ and not them.
This is totally not good. i hate my future.
and at that time i wished that i were dead.
Great, now i can decide what i want to be and what i want to do in the future.
He knew all the way that i did not want to further my study in Malaysia.
sigh~ i have no say to my future i think.
Thanks father.
im watching charmed season 1 (: haha. nothing better to do. LOL.
k tats it for today (:
w'salaam
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
{ 7:24 PM }
salaam(:
Gosh, miss everyone badly but wat can i do?
miss him ):
and im gonna miss my purple life. gonna miss it so much.
while everyone's dream is getting nearer mine ?
nowhere?
sigh~
i guess i cant let go of what had happened to me? it feels like its haunting me every sec every min every hour every day.
I fear the most..
