Sunday, January 24, 2010
{ 7:15 PM }
salaam~
In order to forget the pass, i decided to change my look.
so i bought new spec. Italy spec. gosh~ cost me a bomb. haha.
a nerdy look.
im trying to hide my sadness in this brand new spec.
i hope it works .
never wore spec with a full frame before. haha. so weird.
new hp , new look and new interest. haha.
mummy can u buy me a new camera?
i really want to take photography course.~
haha. okay thats it (:
i wish i could forget it.. coz im an iron gurl.
i wish i could be more confident.
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
{ 7:20 PM }
Oh my~
This is bad. i thought it was just me but when i took the depression test it was like 80% .
Its not one or two test. ive been doing it since morning!~ imagine!
*faints*
i couldnt believe this.
1.Frequent sadness, tearfulness, crying.
Ive been crying n crying. not good.
yeah my parents want me to do somethg that i din want to. so ive been cryng for days. no for months.
2.Hopelessness.
i do feel a little hopless.
3.Decreased interest in activities; or inability to enjoy previously favorite activities.
yeah sometymes.
4.Persistent boredom; low energy.
most of the tyme,
5.Social isolation, poor communication
im going to do that.
6.Low self esteem and guilt
yeah.everytyme.
7.Extreme sensitivity to rejection or failure.
perceived lack of success.
8.Increased irritability, anger, or hostility.
Always.
9.Difficulty with relationships
no interest in maintaining friendships. They’ll stop calling and visiting their friends.
10.Frequent complaints of physical illnesses, such as headaches and stomachaches.
yeah. headaches and stomaches.
11.Frequent absences from school or poor performance in school.
ermm~
12.Poor concentration
i cannt concentrate even while wtchg tv! i aint going to wtch tv animore.
13.A major change in eating or sleeping patterns
yeah. im eating a lot. and i couldnt sleep.
14.Talk of or efforts to run away from home
been thinking abt that.
15.Thoughts or expressions of suicide or self-destructive behavior
haha. never.
13 out of 15 !
gosh. ~
mcm mane nak blaja psychology nie? kalau diri sendiri ade psychology problem.
sigh~
Friday, January 15, 2010
{ 12:48 AM }
hey ppl(:
currently chatting with mary Jane. (:
bored to death. haha.
aniwaes , i love this song (:
climb by joe mcelderry .
Lyrics:
I can almost see it
That dream I´m dreaming but
There´s a voice inside my head saying
You´ll never reach it
Every step I´m taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking
But I
I gotta keep trying
Gonna keep my head held high
There´s always gonna be another mountain
I´m always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I´m gonna have to lose
Aint about how fast I get there
Aint about what´s waiting on the other side
It´s the climb
The struggles I´m facing
The chances I´m taking
Sometimes they knock me down but
No I´m not breaking
I mean I know it
But these are the moments that
I´m gonna remember most
Yeah
Just gotta keep going
And I
I gotta be strong
Just keep pushing on
Cuz
There´s always gonna be another mountain
I´m always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
And sometimes I´m gonna to have to lose
Aint about how fast I get there
Aint about what´s waiting on the other side
It´s the climb
Yeah
There´s always gonna be another mountain
I´m always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes you gonna to have to lose
Aint about how fast I get there
Aint about what´s waiting on the other side
It´s the climb
Yeah
Yeay
Keep on moving
Keep climbing
Keep the faith
Baby
It´s all about
It´s all about
The climb
Keep the faith
Keep your faith
Woho
Monday, January 4, 2010
{ 4:54 PM }
dah bukak sekolah pun (:
adik dah pegi sekolah mcm biase ... tinggal mar sorang kat rumah.. alangkah indahnye kalau bende tu tak terjadi. *nagis*
seme bergembira.. dan cita2 mereka hampir tercapai .. aku?
masih tetap sama.
mar pikir positive.
mungkn ini lah yang terbaik utk aku.
ade hikmah nye.
sigh~
